Sunday, September 19, 2004
// Say a little prayer.

I just finished doing up my sister's blog for her (again!). Gah. I'm itching for a new one myself. Wait. Wait till I get some inspiration.

I spent today like I would any Sunday. With the huge exception that I don't have to study today. Well, actually, I should be starting revision for A levels right? What do you think I am? A robot? Haha. I gave myself the day off today.

Went to visit my grandmother today. Last week when my mother visited her at the nursing home, the nurses said that my grandmother has a mild stroke. The person I saw lying on the bed looked nothing like the grandmother I knew. She was weak, frail and helpless. Ten years ago, she was able to stand on her own two feet. She picked me up from school everyday, without fail. She was able to go down to the provision shops to do grocery shopping. She was able to climb a flight of stairs everyday, when we lived in the double storey flat. Now, she's bed-ridden, dependent on nurses to clean her, bathe her, feed her.

Of course I am deeply saddened. I am exceptionally attached to her because of the simple fact that I spent most of my nuturing years with her. She brought me up. I stood by her bedside, holding her right hand. Her left hand has gone limp due to the stroke. She can now only hear through her right ear. Everything on the left, is not functioning. She speaks with a slur and can only moan if she needs help. I couldn't help but cry. I was touched by the fact that she could remember me. That was all I needed. For her to remember me.

She lost her husband to stroke, 34 years ago. I can't help but think of how we are all going to end our lives. Are we going to end it being sick? dependent? doing something we love? lying in the arms of our loved ones? being hit by an oncoming vehicle? We all don't know what God has in store for all of us. I know that I'll be praying for her. I'll be praying very hard for her. It pains me to see her suffering this way. My dear readers, help pray for my grandmother k?