Saturday, October 30, 2004
// this hype.

I wonder where this hype came about. I'm Buble crazy.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004
//back for a while

hey guys. i'm so sick of studying. so i went online and spent a bit too long there, resulting in this. hehe. oops.

I had this layout in mind when I was doing Suff's blog. But i used tables for suff's blog, and i think i messed some code up so the links showed up wrong, the cursors all. So i learnt my lesson, and used divs instead. hehe. Everything on this blog is within a div. tak tau kan.. haha.

okay lah okay lah. I'll go back to studying.

Friday, October 22, 2004
// the final lap

The author wont be updating this till the end of A Levels, that's 26 Nov, which is eons from now. She apparently needs to study for it. Fan mail still accepted.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004
// Update!

Okay guys. I was bored la ok. Pictures were chosen to suit the size of the background. There was no specific preference ok, so don't bash me up if your photo is not on.

Ok ok, I hear your cries. I've got people msging me telling me to move my pics far away from imagestation cos it sucks, and I can't help but agree. So, I've moved to webshots. Just follow this link:
here

hehe.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Pics are up!

here

But oh, you have to sign up for an imagestation account. Just sign up lah ok. Its worth it. I'm talented.

// I'm legal

heyhey guys. I'm officially 18 today! Woohoo! Being 18 allows you to do so many things. But those things, I'm not going to do, of course. 18's the legal age for smoking, driving, watching m18 movies, clubbing, all of which, aren't the sort of things i'd do. Fine. I'm boring, so sue me. Well, I'm going to learn to drive, of course. That's the only thing I'll do. hehe.

Alright, alright, my sister insists that I make a public announcement to thank her. Cos she and halim have been allies to get me an mp3 player for my birthday. Yikes. It was a pleasant surprise and I really thank God I've got people like that in my life. Rili thankful. Thanks Halim, Lydia, Baba, Aizat, Suff, Jamie, Raph, My lovely class for everything today. thank you so much. Oh yes, and to my sister also lah.

I guess the people around me have been victim of my endless whining about wanting to buy an mp3 player for myself. Hehe. Sorry.

Today was also farewell assembly, plus the teachers' concert. I'm in the process of uploading the pics, so just wait yups. The pics will be up tonite.

Once again, thank you!

Tuesday, October 05, 2004
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Hey guys, earlier i wrote about my grandmother who was really ill right. Little did I know that that visit to her was my last. She passed away yesterday morning.

It was my first time witnessing the entire process. It was a real eye opener. You know how its different reading about the Niagara Falls or the Pyramids and seeing them in books and when you actually there and seeing it for yourself? It was something like that. This is the first death I've experienced in my entire 18 years of life. It wasn't easy. I saw her first at her ward in the nursing home. She looked so peaceful, so fair, so rested. Deep down inside I know I should be happy for her, but the loss was just too great. Relatives told me that I should redha and accept, but it was hard for me. I grew up with her.

Everything seemed so surreal. It was hard for me to believe that the woman who used to take care of me is now gone. My mum and a few others bathed her. Quite a number of us prayed for her at the mosque at Puasara Aman. My first time performing solat Jenazah. I witnessed her burial and i guess the crux of the whole process was the talqin. I couldn't stop crying when I heard these words

"Sebentar lagi dua malaikat akan datang dan menyoal Marrabbukka..."

I have never doubted my faith, and that Monday only made me surer of my faith.

I used to be afraid of dead bodies, but something propelled me forward to have my final look at her. After a while, i guess that fear just rubbed off because a while later, just after my grandmother was buried, another body came to occupy the grave beside my grandmother's. I no longer had that fear of dead bodies as I guess I finally settled down on the fact that death is but part and parcel of life.

There'll be a tahlil at my place this Sunday. Those who wanna come just sms me k.

Oh and we had a GP mock paper today. There couldn't be a more fitting topic. Death and Euthanasia. Hmm. Thanks.

Saturday, October 02, 2004
// Announcement

Suff, your blog is done. (if its too plain, u change the colours yourself k..) hehehe. Sorry if it looks a little odd. My first time dealing with tables lah.

Friday, October 01, 2004
// Happy Children's Day!

I'm still alive people. don't worry. I just didn't have the mood to blog. I think I screwed up my prelims. Gah. I was hoping for at least 2 As. but I was shy of my second A by 2 marks. Can you imagine that? 2 marks. and the best part is that, i need either 1 or 2 marks for the rest of my other subjects to up a grade. Hmm. Thanks. I could have gotten AABC instead of my ugly ABCD grades now. I need one more mark to get a B for F Maths. Oh. If only I didn't cancel my 2-sample t test solution.

Damn.

I guess I can only learn from this.

Don't worry, I'm not in any form of depression, I'm working on Suffian's blog! hehehe. (Cos his blog now looks like him. Cannot make it. Shut up Suff, or else I'll bite you.)

I thought I didn't need to go to school today. Its Children's Day, man! My sister, in sec 1 didn't have to go to school. That's because her school gave them the day off. Damn. Lucky kids. But she had her German exam. So while she's "wie heist du-ing" at MOELC, I'm in school dozing off in chem lecture.

Hmm. Thanks.

I'm in love with the guitar solo in American Idiot. I miss jamming!