Tuesday, March 30, 2004
RESULTS RESULTS RESULTS

I got back maths C and part of my physics paper back today. I 'deproved' by 8 marks for maths. Not too pleased with myself. Marcus got full marks, congrats marcus. Physics MCQ, taiqo-ly got 17 out of 25. Not that spectacular, i know, considering marcus got 23/25. Haix. Congrats again, marcus. I donno if this is obvious or not but MY CLASS IS STRESSING ME OUT! No matter how hard i study, when the results are out, i feel stupid.

Had a bad day, but, hey, who doesn't? And have i mentioned that its a good thing I've changed my handphone plan to Pod Lite? Cause when you mistakenly leave your phone with a bunch of immature guys, they get cranky... with your phone. (like when irwan gets hold of your phone..hehe..) So it was a mass messaging spree to about half the people in the universe, (i hope the messages weren't obscene..) leaving me to clean up a huge mess. GRR!

I've been reading up on how EDTA is used to cure lead poisoning. I need to know why and how it removes the lead from our system. I need the mechanism and i don't seem to have any luck in finding the right website. I suck. See. I feel stupid. again. sigh. Things don't look too good now. And I mean it in every sense of that phrase. Maybe playing the guitar will help. maybe.

Friday, March 26, 2004
I'M AN IDIOT!

Today marks the end of my first hurdle in JC2. End of Block test 1. Funny how unsatisfied I feel. I didn't have that same 'Yes its over!' feeling like I had after my promos last year. When Mrs Gay said "stop writing" I didn't feel good that Block Test was over. Maybe cos I know I won't do well. Chem was shit, physics was shit. Maths.. sigh. F Maths..double sigh.

And to top everything up, I lost my wallet after chem paper on wednesday. I think i must have left it on the 97 bus on the way to my mum's office. Sigh. Its been a hectic week. and still, no sign of my wallet. Fifty over bucks, ATM card, EZ link and my precious photos... Gosh. I've never felt so down before. I rarely lose stuff. This is the first time I lost a wallet. Wonder what's up with me. sigh.

Went to Raffles Place with Halim after F Maths today. I went looking around for my parents' 20th Anniversary gift. Saw one at Kalm's. Think I'm going to get them the photo frame and put their photos in it. Its kinda depressing to walk around without an EZ link card and always worrying if you've got coins to take the bus.

Enough depressing stories. I got out of the depressed mood and went to Lot 1. Woohoo. Saw this neat Billabong wallet. It was love at first sight. Bahaha..I got it! woohoo! LOOK!! --

Ok. So I'm going crazy. Whatever. Looks like I gotto learn to be optimistic. (not by spending money, of course..) I'm going to have my EZ link and ATM card remade again tomorrow. Then I'm going to be happy all day. Really. Oh, and me being the great predictor again.. I'm going to predict that my grades would be.. uhh.. ADEE. hows that? (and my aim was AAAB.. wow.) -__-

Sunday, March 21, 2004
QUICK UPDATE

Tomorrows the start of Block Test one. Itis when reality really gets the better of us, or at least, me. This one week vacation break has been quite an eventful one, well, part of it. Mugged in school, but i don't think that did me any good, cause I could not really concentrate as well as if i had mugged alone at home. I cant stay at home either, cos its too noisy and unconducive for my learning, or what i've got to do. Sigh.

Today is Sunday. I'm supposed to be in front of the TV! But I am proud to say that I have spent a good five hours in front of my physics TYS. Did three chaps of physics today. two more to go. I'm done with Math C, done with Chemistry. Still got to work on my F Maths and Physics. I'm worried sick. Oh. GP is tomorrow and i've done close to nothing on my reading. My reading habits haven't changed. I always begin on the same day -- tomorrow. Double sigh.

So, rather than me updating my rather redundant blog, I should go back to the solace of my darn TYS and finish capacitance. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Oh well. I got to change my outlook on this too. I got to be positive...right? heh. okie. So YAY! I'm going back to my books. I won't miss cyberspace at all! Yay! -__-

Saturday, March 13, 2004
HIATUS

I've been on hiatus for quite sometime, and i think i'll be extending it. The reason for my absence from cyberspace keeps screaming in my face everyday. BLOCK TEST 1. Yup. Good enough a reason for me to stop blogging temporarily. I want to achieve my aim that I've set for myself for Block Test. I need to work hard. The A levels are so near I can smell it already.

I need to work hard. I need to focus.

Focus amy, focus.

Thursday, March 04, 2004
DEEPEST CONDOLENCES

All Crescentians, or all who know Hafidzoh, batch of 2001/2 (Sec 3C3 in 2001). She was a malay dancer and a NCC cadet. She met with an accident last night and passed away. Al-Fatihah...
I'm lost for words.

Wednesday, March 03, 2004
"I'VE GOT ONE NERVE LEFT AND YOU'RE GETTING ON IT!"

Today was a great mind-opener. 03S14 together with 03S54 went for a home visit to the Red Cross Home for the Disabled. The patients there were really a pitiful sight. A few girls from S54 broke down once they stepped into the children's ward. Couldn't blame them. I for once felt like crying. Most of them were born with deformed bodies. Others just had their limbs shrinking on them as age catches up. I fed one female patient and gave her a leg massage. Though I had absolutely no idea what she was babbling about, her smile was priceless.

Me and Stace wheeled some patients and played ball with one elderly patient. She was quite energetic, for someone in her fifties. Me and Stace were burnt out, but she still had energy to play. Some of the male patients were scary. They just start screaming out of the blue at God-knows-what, which, at the end of the day made me feel thankful for my limbs, my sanity and my family. sigh. Stuff like these really gets me. Why can't the world be a perfect place, where everyone's equal? Sure, there'll be the less fortunate, but must they be deprived of the most basic necessities? I wish i knew but I don't. I'm sure God knows better. I shan't make the slightest attempt to challenge that.

Aside from the home visit, work is catching up on me. I've got loads to do, but so little time. grrrr. Yup. and people are still getting on my nerves. Like what i told aizat, its ok that people piss me off, i can endure, but to a point where people piss my friends off, it frustrates me. This is bad. I can't get by a day without getting pissed off at people after hearing what they did. Grrrrr. I want them off my planet!