Saturday, April 23, 2005
Brink of depression

Ahhhh. I'm in such a state pf panic right now that I'm teetering on the edge of depression. Most of my scholarship applications have been rejected, mainly due to the fact that I did not receive any replies from any of them. PSC posted me to MOE, which also, I have not received any replies when people I know who were posted there already have had replies.

NUS rejected my applications, I think for Medicine and Dentistry. Now I'm left with my third choice of Chemistry @ their faculty of Science, which I don't even know if I'm in. WHY!?!?! Why was I not even shortlisted for Medicine? Haha, my first taste of rejection and it hurts, really bad. Bahhh. I wonder who they select, since having 4 distinctions did not even get me into the essay part of the selection process. Oh wells. Tawakal amylia, tawakal. Now I'm so panicky. Its crazy. Will NUS really just reject me and throw me to one side? and not even give me a chance at their faculty of science?

BAAAAAAAHHHHHH.

I really did want to pursue an MBBS at NUS. Check the Malay paper dated 5th March 2005. I said I wanted to do medicine when they interviewed me, post results. ARRRRGGGHHH.

Mendaki rejected me. Because I did not get a distinction for my GP. Hmm. So much for wanting to help Malays, yeah.

HOW?!

Well, at least I have something to rest my head on, knowing that I got a place in NTU, my first choice of Chemistry. So that consoles me, a little. But NUS has always been my dream school! Don't I even stand a chance in their Faculty of Science? BAHHHH.

I'm in a state of panic, just about ready to fall into depression.

God help me.