Friday, January 30, 2004
Its been a long time!

It definately has been a long time since I updated my blog... ::sigh:: I'm getting sick of this layout. I'll change it soon, I guess. Gahhh... Like I said, I'm never satisfied. Ok, quick quick quick updates...

School's back in full force, I have to change my mindset. I'm now in SAJC as a second year student, someone from JC2, NOT JC1. So I have to stop slacking! (not that I slacked that much in JC1 last year... Grrr..) Like what Aik Hoe asked me the other day.. "Amylia, why you so slack this year?" I think I'm slack too. Felt more motivated after Halim gave me a pep talk on the way home together, yesterday. I think his words really woke me up. I really can't afford to slack now. I can't. I won't. See, I have even (drastically) reduced my blogging and MSN-ing hours! Life is becoming so monotonous for me.

S paper results were out sometime this week. I was granted to take 2 S papers, Maths and Chemistry.. Syukur Alhamdulillah... I know its not going to be easy juggling TWO S papers with my 4 A level subjects, plus I can't possibly neglect my loved ones around me... Friends, family and most importantly, God...'cause He's the only one who can help me through this, to see that I go through this whole "journey", and emerge unscathed. Unscathed -- hmmm.. i'm not exactly saying that I'm in a bad or dangerous situation, but, failure to plan and organise my time well could possibly lead me astray. I don't want that to happen. All my efforts would just go to waste. Darn waste. I really just tawakal and, of course, put in effort. I rest the remaining bits in His hands.

Ms Wong talked to the S paper candidates and I think what she said really scared me. But after today's ME lesson with Mr Desmond Ng who talked about "The Mindset of a Champion", I can't let what Ms Wong said scare me. Instead, I should take it as an encouragement to press on. "Take care and press on." Wise words that I'll always remember by Mr Loh, my math teacher in Sec4.

Its Friday night! And I'm at home blogging. Actually planned to do some studying... Physics test on Tuesday! Superposition, Electric Fields and Current of Electricity. Boo. With a Physics teacher like mine, hmm. I've decided to take a break from tutorials 'cos I finished them in school just now. I have two more to do, then I'll be ready for questions during tutorials. Life's a rush now. I hate it, but what to do? I've already got myself half buried in this JC thing. Less than a year to the A levels. The next 9 months are definately not going to be easy.

FMaths test results out! I got 23.5/25 which amounts to about 94% but still not good enough for my class 'cause apparently, three of my classmates got full marks. Yeap. Those scholars. Gahh. And when ranked against the entire FMath cohort, I'm 14th in place. I feel like I'm never good enough. Grrr. I think I shall stick to my plan for this year. I'm in the process of becoming a full-fledged nerd this year. I was half (ok...maybe three-quarters) of a nerd last year.

Reading some Physics stuff now, in the hope of "studying" for Tuesday's test.. I hope I can get my AAAB for Block Test1. InsyaAllah, if I work hard enough for it. Thinking about too many things that just distract me. I can't afford to falter. The onus is on me to secure a good future. I must press on.